So I have finally decided something. :D *cricket noises* Yeeaaah—-!

I realized that unlike some ‘more exciting people’ I am pretty damn confusing to figure out. Sometimes I am this little girl. All I care about is being cute and adorable things. I’d love to wrap myself up in a fluffy pink dress and read Japanese manga all day or bake some cupcakes that look like puppies. Yes puppies. Cupcakes so adorable that you cannot bring them to your lips without a guilty conscience because of the way they look at you. But I digress…other times I do not feel like that. Sometimes I want to smear on red lipstick and mess up my hair, pull on a short skirt and heels and just go. Anywhere. It doesn’t matter; and let the world melt around me. No fear of being sexy or too intimidating because that is my power. Otep screaming in my ears. A satirical tongue making offensive jokes no one catches and feeling swollen with intelligence. I’ve decided that the next time someone tell me ‘Oh, I thought you were such a sweet little girl’ I will smile and say ‘I thought people were allowed to be complex.’ Then I will think ‘Only assholes assume anyway.’ Because once people think they know you they think they can control you. ‘She’s so sweet and naive so if I whine to her she will like me and think I am sensitive.’ Probably not, because the truth is she would rather donkey punch your face in and go hang out with real guys who don’t treat her like she is stupid and predictable.

So new goal! Be myself and surround myself with friends I like. That means a few Tumblr followers who I know in real life who I think are awesomesauce. I really need to do more fun things with more intelligent people.